fine, she's accompanying me.

J-friend showed me something. some notes that C-friend sent to her and S-friend.

they are in same project grp. (which is why she cant escape i guess? cos the know as well since its from a guy in their project grp).

J-friend forward to me and reminded me not to mention a single word. of cos i said yes. at least i wont mention to the rest of the clique i guess.

i wasn't really hurt. but kinda not very happy nia.

but i am glad about something.

way before, when i juz know her, i tested something which tells me clearly that i have to beware of C-friend.

(i told sai bout the test, seriously, qi already gave me, i juz wanted to test whether is she a friend indeed or surface friend).

I tested only her because i have some suspicions about her.

After that test, i have full armour before her.

she is not someone i can let my guards down.

Indeed, J-friend prove me right today :)

J-friend concluded that C-friend is the kinda more selfish ppl in uni that we have to be careful.

(we used to talk bout these ppl)

I only gave her a smile and a nod.

i wonder if J-friend actually knows.

her actions today isnt very wise either.

that notes were sent to her some time ago. so it goes to tell me something.

dont put your heart and soul into this friend first.

maybe half? will do.

afterall, 预防胜于治疗.

i dont think they know my blog. so i can say it here.

but its still nice that she showed me. at least it tells me something. she has the will to be friends.

oh. S-friend.

in my clique. but haven test. so far juz friend. got time. its okay.

am i being too protective? haha. its better than being backstab i guess.

to be honest, i was about to let down my guards on J-friend. but i guess god is looking after me, this blur queen.

before i had the chance to throw my armour into recycle bin, god make sure i dont find the bin and sent a secret arrow towards me and make sure i have a chance to safe guard myself before i'm hurt i guess.

he knows i'm stupid and blur so he gave me the ability to guess what kinda ppl my friends are from small little details and then i can test my hypothesis.

i think i am given this ability when i was in p5/p6.

if not i guess i would be a ah lian now from my p4 history. haha.

i think i'm blessed.

when i'm upset that i couldnt get into business- i realise i'm not cut out to be in business.

when i'm unhappy i didnt get into my first choice- i realise that the course is not what i've imagine it to be. far from it.

at least in mse now, i like my material science module and maths. phy, ours is a easier version-lucky me. the ones i hate is life science-under sbs and management with humour-business.

oh. i also blessed with a group of nice easy-going guys.

i feel blessed.

J-friend lent me her life science tb and maths tb. actually phy but i recall qi gave me le. haha.

i honestly think J-friend is really like see.

someone who will take care of me. if not this blur queen wouldnt have know many things.

which is why i so readily let down my guards until juz now. oops

i told dong that she have to learn to observe ppl from little little details and fish out bits and pieces of their character. in this way, she wont be hurt or experience some unfortunate things like what she complaint.

perhaps i'm too protective but its better safe than sorry. right?

oh ya. i see another thing.

My character will clash with S and C-friend.

haha.

i guess i'll have to continue to be like this in uni in order to safeguard myself.

thats the uni that i was warned and prepared for.

its so different.

like when i'm with dong, i'll make sure she wont miss any notes qi shared or anything.

but until now, i didnt quite mentioned whatever qi/ak gave me with my new friends.

i told J-friend only some of it. not all as well. (none to the others)

that's the difference btw real friends and new friends i guess.

i let down my guards for see soon after we know each other.

but i doubt uni is like this.

like sai said. we didnt grow up in such unfortunate env so we're not exactly prepared for it.

but we have to learn right? so... lets live painfully with armour before everyone...

byeee